No pain, no gain.

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 18

What food is your weakness?

I eat all the things!

No, there’s certain foods where once I start eating them I can’t stop. It used to be Walkers crisps and biscuits but I can handle those now. If I have Thai Sweet Chilli Sensations or Doritos I cannot stop eating the entire bag (You know those big share bags? Those!). Sometimes I just let myself do it and plan it into my day calorie-wise. A majority of the time I just completely avoid anything I know I can’t handle.

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 17

Do you have an eating disorder?

No.

Well, that was an easy one, wasn’t it?

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 16

When did you first decide to lose weight?

Around June 2010. I lost about 16lbs then gained it (plus more) back around Christmas. I’m not really sure why. I wasn’t actually taking it seriously, I wasn’t really exercising or eating healthy. I don’t know how I lost the weight or how I gained it all back.

I’ve been taking it seriously since… I want to say August. I’ve had a few slip ups along the way but I know I can do it!

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 15

Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

No, I’m not. I have once been vegetarian for just over a month but in all honesty, it’s a lot easier for me to eat meat. I found my parents had to spend more money on food because I couldn’t eat what they did and considering money is hard enough it just wasn’t worth it. Anyway, I’m happy eating meat.

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 14

What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?

I just want to be healthy and happy. I don’t know what weight or size that will be. At the moment I’m thinking around 145lbs or a UK size 10/12 (US 6/8) but I won’t know until I get there, especially as I cannot remember ever being either of those weights or sizes. However, I hope to accomplish it in a years time. Definitely by Christmas 2012, hopefully by Halloween 2012.

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 13

Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

Healthy. I calorie count using myfitnesspal. :)

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 12

Although it is not technically Day 12 as I’ve not been too good at keeping up with this, I do apologise! I’ll be doing every day from now on. ;)

What do you normally eat?

This is such a hard question to answer as it differs so much! I suppose I’ll give a little run down.

Breakfast: Cereal with orange juice or hard boiled eggs on toast, both with half a banana.
Lunch: Normally a sandwich with either chicken breast or ham & cheese. I’ll also have a piece of fruit and a granola bar. Sometimes I’ll add a packet of crisps.
Dinner: Either pasta, rice, chips or something made from potato with a form of meat (any kind, it depends what we have in the freezer) with at least one form of vegetable.

As for snacks I don’t really snack that much but if I do it’ll be literally anything. As long as I have the calories for it I’ll eat it. I do love fruit though, especially bananas, grapes, strawberries and apples so if we have any of those I’ll have that instead.

I also eat out a bit, probably once a week or so. It obviously isn’t the healthiest but, as I said, if I have the calories for it I’ll eat it. If I think “Ooh, I want this but I don’t have quite enough” I’ll normally just go without or do extra exercise to compensate. I’M NAUGHTY, OK.

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 9, 10 & 11

Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Yes. I’ve been called fat numerous times. The person who says the most negative things about my weight though; myself.

What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”

I haven’t really given anything up except fizzy drinks and that really wasn’t hard. I love water & squash!

I feel like I still need to give the fat me up though. I need to let go and realise that nope, it’s time to let go and move on.

Your favorite thinspo blog and why!

Fitspo. ;) I honestly don’t think I have a favourite. Every one is my favourite. I don’t care how ‘cheesy’ that sounds. Every single person I follow is amazing. I love seeing everyone’s progress and their up’s and down’s because it reminds me I’m human too. It’s OK to mess up every now and again. Tomorrow is another day!

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 7 & 8

Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? 

Yes. I’m not really sure what is meant by “care”. I mean, they don’t really say anything. They buy more fruit now than they used to and my mum will occasionally say “Oh, we should work out together” (we never actually do) but that’s about it.

Your workout routine.

It differs. Sometimes I’ll do the 30DS, use my exercise bike, go for a walk, run or jog, go for an actual bike ride, go swimming, use Wii fit. Just depends what I feel like doing. I always make sure I do something every day though. :)

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge - Day 5 & 6

Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

I want to be happy with how I look. To look in a mirror and not hate everything I see. To not have my thighs rub so much that I need to constantly buy new trousers because the friction has created holes. To be able to wear boots because my calves are not too fat to fit.

I’m sure there’s plenty more reasons like those above but that’ll do. ;)

Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

Hmm, I’m not sure. Ocassionally I’ll eat a lot of food but most of the time it’s because I’m worried I won’t get the calories I need for the day. If I ever under eat I gain so quickly (my point shall be proven tomorrow when I weigh-in). Other times I do it because I can. Really though, I do it with foods that I can never get sick of. I’ll sit and eat and eat and eat because it tastes good and I want it so why not? (Hey, this is a fat girl talking here!) This is why I try to avoid the foods that I binge on because I know I’m not at a point where I can exhibit the level of control that I need to.

On a deeper level: As confusing as it sounds I think part of me isn’t ready to let go of the fat girl. Part of me thinks “Well, you’ve always been the fat girl. You damn well better stay the fat girl.”